Mei-chan dear, I love you so much. Your mommy and I care for you so much. Like we told you, whatever you had to do is ok, and we're going to love you forever. That last hour I spent with you was nice. I'm sure you were looking around and could see the angels with you. I tried to ask them to not take you, but I guess that didn't work out.

Your mommy and I had so many plans for you. We're going to miss you so much, every day. But we're not angry at you at all. You knew what was best, and if your little heart couldn't take it, I'm sure you made the right decision. I wanted to sing that song to you one more time:

Fly me to the moon
and let me play among the stars
Let me see what spring is like
on Jupiter and Mars
In other words, hold my hand (you did, remember, your little hand held me. I had been waiting months for you to do that)
In other words, darling kiss me

Fill my heart with song
and let me sing forever more
You are all I long for
all I worship and adore
In other words, please be true
In other words, I love you. 
 I love you!

I guess you remembered me singing that to you a few times. I made up some songs for you too; I hope you liked them. I'm not much of a songwriter. That song, I got from the end of the episodes in EVA. But I think it's an old song.

Thank you for being so precious and beautiful. You were a shining gem, a pure angel to mommy and I. Those days here were just absolutely perfect. We loved every second. I never got to change one of your dirty diapers, but I really wanted to. I was waiting and waiting. I would do anything for you Mei.

I'm so sorry this happened. I was a fool to trust that idiot. I should have taken you in and not listened to him. I hope you can forgive me for not doing so. I'm gonna deal with him, don't worry. He'll never hurt another precious baby like you ever again.

There's so much I wanted to talk to you about. So many things. I wanted to take care of you growing up, watch you learn and play on your computer. I wanted to play games with you. Photograph you with our little rabbits. I was so excited that you'd be in school and we could study all the hanzi you would have had to memorize. I really would have gotten you on that NHK show. I'm not sure what it's called. I-nai-I-nai-I-nai-iway! Something like that. With elf girl and green dog. You would have been the cutest baby on the set. You'd have had to learn a bit of Japanese I guess, but we coulda done that together too.

Mei-chan, my dearest little girl, I love for you forever and always. Wherever you are out there, I hope you're ok. Everyone was there with your body, but I didn't want to be. I knew you had already moved on. I hope that's ok with you. Mommy and I are gonna move. Maybe Atlanta. We had a great time when we lived there. That was just a bit before you came along, my sweet angle. Mommy really can't go back to the house. It was supposed to be a surprise, but she painted your whole room. The had little Strawberry Shortcake strawberries on the wall, little flowers, all pink. Mommy was really worried about finishing it on time. She had done it with little Care Bears and clouds, but decided that pink flowers were prettier for you. I wish you would have seen it. Mommy's mom is going to clean out your stuff. I'm gonna keep a bit (and some photos I have of you), but Mommy doesn't wanna see them right now. Mom just wants to keep you in her memory. Please understand. One day we'll look at those things again, just not now. I'm gonna hold your little pijamas, the one with the pink cat on it. You were wearing that for the few days at our house. You were sooooo cute in it.

Te amo, y te quiero siempre, mi linda divina. I'll write to you again. I want to keep you so close to me, as you fill my heart. I know I've said my life's destroyed now, but it's not your fault at all. Mommy and I are gonna be ok, so you just go and enjoy everything you're doing now, ok? Right before they started the transfusion, I told you I was gonna go, and I'd see you soon. Let's just take “soon” as very loose, ok? But I so want to be with you again, someday, somewhere. I love you honey.