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Monday, June 06, 2005

Mei's Stone

I never understood what “live each day as if it was your last“ until now. While Mei was here, I wish I would have spent a bit more time with her, somehow. I wish I had more seconds of memory in my mind. Some things I'm glad I did, even though at the time it was hard. Like going to the burial and laying her box inside the chamber. Being there when the machine was shut down. Some things I didn't get to do. My wife closed Mei's eyes; the OB closed her mouth.

When I look at Mei's pictures, I still can't believe this has happened. Weeks before Mei was born, I kept saying she'd be born on the 19th. Even though Gaby and the OB said not, I still kept thinking yes. I went in at 5:30pm on the last day. The doctors told me I could only stay 20 minutes, and then they'd start the transfusion. But the blood arrived late, around 6:30pm. While I was annoyed then, I guess it was a way for me to say goodbye. I kissed Little Mei all over during that hour, said goodbye, and that'd I'd see her soon. Her eyes looked at me; her hand grasped me. Mei didn't leave until I had that hour with her. I like to think that that means something.

I get so sad thinking that Mei, well, not her, but even her little body, is sealed inside that box inside a chamber. That's probably because I'd find that quite terrifying if I were in there, and I just can't realise that she's gone. My friend Herbert Sandoval got Mei's Stone made. While the real one is white marble and engraved, he made a colour version too. I was thinking of it just saying “Mei“, but then we thought to leave a little last song and message to her. This is what I said to her before she left.

Mei

Monday, June 06, 2005 4:50:55 AM UTC

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Tuesday, June 07, 2005 3:35:13 PM UTC

Dear Michael & Gaby,
I have written before - you may remember my name. The stone is beautiful and a fitting tribute! I still think of you both everyday, and our family continues to pray for your family. I stumbled across a website today while searching for a beautiful painting by Harry Mileham called "Hope Cherishing Love". I stumbled across this image after my 9 day old nephew had died, and I could not help but see this as an image of my sister-in-law holding her dear little son who was now an angel. This website is so beautiful (be sure to have your speakers on - there is lovely music to go with it) and repeatedly uses the image of this painting. Here is the url: "http://msl2005a.homestead.com/0224.html" Please let me know if the url does not come through and I will email it to you. May God continue to bless and console you both.
Sincerely, Miriam Cotter

Miriam Cotter | mtcotterAT NOSPAMhotmail dot com

Friday, June 10, 2005 1:34:59 AM UTC

God Bless you and your family Michael

Bill | WilliamRyanAT NOSPAMgmail dot com

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